Wednesday, December 7, 2016

As the Sunset starts to change

Today the sunset is
nothing like it was
yesterday – a bliss,
today it’s but a mirage...
Of reality, and as such,
not a very good one.
Yet everything’s so true to touch,
and feel, and love.
May it all be but a dream?
I start to swirl and spin,
and to compensate the fear,
I collapse into myself within.
No, still wide awake,
I can not feel this sunset.
But it can’t be fake,
and so the sun will set...
And paint the sky with colors
that I somehow can not read.
So it must be me ...
For mirrors of ourself, its said
Are everything.
And therefore sad

is this sunsets fling.

Puud on metsa taga

Puud on metsa taga.
Keegi on kadunud.
Aeg on saatuslik aga,
keegi leiab niikuinii
selles mingit lohutust.
Ja iseennast ammugi,
mitte keegi meist
ei tunne nägupidi.

Soojad tüved seisavad,
nired alla männi vaik.
Keegi leitud arvavad,
see eest leitud tühi paik
Seestpoolt pole mõtet
Vaadata välja nüüd
väljas kõik teevad lõket
tumerohelises rüüs

Ammugi mina tean
kõik kaob ja leian taas
Sinu jätsin noores eas
meenub kõrges heinas aas

Sul ei olnud miskit öelda
minul oli, vaiksin
Nüüd vaid mälestustes ta
sealgi ainult  eksisin

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Bringing colors and light

Deep inside...
Beautiful blessings - 
a light that doesn’t subside.

Could I give you some of these of autumn colors?
Someone painted on my heart and my soul
Nothing can make you feel so - like nothing matters
Railed on a glorious mission in love on your own

Where do all broken spirits go?
Thrown by the winds they travel alone
Always in nighttime they speak to me
Whisper and sigh so restlessly
Come to me spirits I’ll make you see
I’ll give you peace and set you free

Happiness is yours to find
Freedom is  all in your mind your mind! your mind! your mind!

Calling to bring peace to your home
Shedding light to your soul-night
I will be the peace in the heart of your storm
I will be yours now and when nothings no more

Dim lit day

Blowing dandelions in the wind
they remind me of a fragile mind
Beautiful but blown away
by the beauty of that dim lit day

When the stars were all aligned
and the seals were broken by
kisses and the whispered words
dandelions and the morning birds


Laulavad ikka ent harvem,
valged hääled sinu peas.
Kuulata vaid sel talvel,
hääled lendvad’ lindude seas.

Tuules kantud on hüüded.
Sosinad ammugi saadet’ ja
tühja on kõik sinu püüded.
Ole tasa, seisa ja kuulata.
Karjuvad karjuvad karjuvad eneste sees
sosinad saadavad ühes.
Harjuda harjuda harjuda vaikuste ees
hetkega kõik on pahes

Milleks siis sinule tõde kui põletab see,
on valet kegerm kanda
Kelleks lootsid, et moondub sulle too mees
kas tõesti veel end tahad anda.

Vaadata võid ent näha,
vähem ja vähem suudat’ sa.
Häälte varjudes eha,
toob kauge tasase sosina.

Huultelt libiseb oie
ja liitub teistega kajana.
Meeleheit ja vaikuse püüe,
vaikust vaid vaikust vajad Sa.

Varjud varjud vaid varjud me südametes,
ei seleta valguse teket.
Armastus armastus arm iseeneses,
toidab me meelte petet.

Valgus pimedus algus lõputu voog
on kergem petet’ usk,
et lõpp on lõpp jah lõpp on sellelgi lool
sest tõde sul oleks vaid tusk.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Letters of a Lonely Dame

You can take him home with you,
or he’ll be waiting there
no matter if loving or sometimes a fool,
he will hold you near

You get to touch and feel.
You get to caress and kiss.
You get to smell and see
….oh its all that I miss!
The most in the night,
its then, when my imagination takes flight…
and lands on all the painful spots,
where my heart bleeds from cuts,
no one made but me,
by believing that true love…
can be overcome you see.

I was not the one,
and never was it meant to be.
Full moon shone,
but as it went so did he.

Sore from the painful fall,
the most painful of all.
When its love, in what you fall,
and its in love, where I’ll be forever more.

Like a dark, deep hole
no light to crawl up too.
Like locked inside my own soul
and given the key away like a fool.

But you will have him to hold
and he will hold you close as well
I see you together, getting old,
oh bitter mind, why on this do you dwell.

He will love you in the sunlight,
and in the blissful darkness of the night.
You can feel the heat as you melt,
together – feelings I have never felt.

I guess I will stay like this
and why should I complain.
I will have my own hands, and you his
…I accept my destiny though vane,
and... be forgotten.
the lone, silent Dame.