My Delusion

There’s a Picture of a clear blue sky
And I don’t know why
But its making her cry

This girl with her changing eyes
Gives me the highs
every time she cries

This perfect picture of a girl that seems
to comply with every last one of my dreams
vaguely only appears in the night
for she is just a creation of my mind

There’s a place inside my little mind
that she once occupied
with a blink of her eye

Now that all I can do and think
is with this little thing
I have started to shrink

This weird assumption that someone could be
ok with what I am when I dream
Now I’m lost for her I will never-ever find
or maybe If I just close my eyes and try

Firerose

This fire shaped like a rose
that shaped the dome

of the skies at my home

There’s a waterfall

And a black cliff wall

With writings of names
and pictures of days to come

Behind the curtains of the flower field
That’s where I go when I disappear

Behind the fields lies the true me

Soaked in fantasy, swallowed by dreams

The world has changed and

I don’t know how

My reality stayed

The same somehow

This rose burns like the fire

I just quietly sit and cry there

Hoping to disappear in the air

There’s a waterfall

Inside my heart so cold

The spring didn’t melt its core

So the summer sun didn’t feel warm at all

Mr. Hollywood

You say you have to change me
and that Im no good
got me playing someone else like
Hollywood
But im not all that convinced
That your worth it

Work it work it
I say the right words
I put on all the make up
looking absurd
and even with  my bestest try
you still….make…me feel like a broken toy

Clownboy all so silly
I dont want to cry
but if you need my tears
then I can try
Makeup to make up
all the things you messed up
my head is dead
my head is dead
killed between the sheets
of my bed

I think youd have to love me
Just the way I am
To have a chance to be with me
To be my madam
But Im not all that convinced
That your worth it

(cuz im perfect)

Mr Hollywood
its my time to start over
time to change the mood
from a strange litte lover
to an animal of different sort
and much more power

Sex on the cold Church floor

I seek, I destroy, I feel

these salty tears of joy

I hide, I cry I heal

the trapped ones on the wheel

The find is not to find

But to get lost in the search

the colors in the eyes of blind

sex on the cold floor of the church

Cross, stones, echo

painted glass, black robes

Angels with a wet soul

Two soft globes

I descend, a hole its dark

it seems to take forever

I fall as sparrow, but rise as hawk

green flames, my fevers arrows

You seek this joy now kneel

and light my purification torch

I hide the joyful screams of the'

Sex in the cold stone church

Female Gods

I dont know what she said shes a lier
Shed say whatever just to get control
now you see I am under her fire
Now you see how shes out fo control


You aint got no right to judge me
tho based on her words Im a stupid slut
the pictures where im crazy well she druged me
and it seems  Im running out of luck


These girls got ways
girls got ways
with lies lies lies
Just one look
in her eyes
your hypnotized
They got methods
leaving you addicted
these female gods
got us all predicted
…..manipulation victims